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Motherhood And Circumstantial Empty Womb
The sadness others have a difficult time understanding.
(Note to listeners of my narrations: am a bit emotional in this one)
For the past handful of years I’ve googled:
“how to be okay not being a mom”
And not a single article has helped me cope.
Every year I return to this draft and add a little more. Perhaps this one might help you, for this is the year I publish it.
It’s been enough years now.
Grieving, mourning over a dream, it’s not really something people accept as an “appropriate” reason for sadness.
“You have so much though! You have your freedom.”
“Oh, yes, some people choose to not have kids and that’s okay.”
“You’ve never been married?!”
“And no kids either?”
It was my choice but also not my choice.
It’s like society cannot even fathom why I made the conscious decision to not have children with my exes.
Could I have?
Biologically sure, I guess so. I’ve got the working parts but I never even got the chance to find out.
